Archive for June, 2011

Melancholy Heart

So many feelings wash over me
Happiness as soon as you are near
Joy at the sound of your voice
Elation when you whisper my name.
Sadness when you have to leave
 
A feeling comes when we say goodnight
I don’t want to let you go
I feel it building up in me
Wanting to say something
But, I push it back down
 
Afraid that it’s not the right time
Terrified that I will mess things up
Afraid that it’s not the right thing to say
Not knowing if I shower you joy,
Or I bring you indomitable pain.
 
There are so many things I want to say.
So many feelings I have.
Are they real, are they true.
Only my heart knows and
I know yours does too.
 
Then I wonder if I’m too attached
If my feelings are too overbearing
I wonder if by saying anything
I would make you more attached to me
And hurt each other in the process.
 
I don’t want to mess up what we have
At the same time I want to stop you
Look into your exquisite eyes
And tell you what I’m feeling
The words from my heart – straight and true
 
Then, I bite my tongue hard
Afraid of the consequences
So many things I’m feeling
If only you could read my melancholy mind
To discover all of them for yourself

 

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Footnote: Life gives you a chance to love, to work, to play and gaze at the stars. That a day spent with dreaming, finding beauty in flowers, the refreshing breezes on your face and watching the sun set, cannot be bettered.  I learned that life is about walking on the bench hand in hand and sometimes, on good days, for falling in love. But most of all, my biggest learning is that life is simply a collection of little lives, each lived one day at a time.

Mouna Ragam… A Tamil Movie of 80′s!

Sometimes a song or a talk instigate a thought process…a song triggered this movie!!

Hmm…People might be wondering why a post for a movie that got released in the yester year….and in the year when most of the office goers of today would have been born….!

This movie is not being written here just for its own excellence but for the impact it had on my generation and the coming generations for quite some time, that even watching it today, I can feel through the emotions that were in my mind, when I watched this movie as a school and college goer….!

It was late Sunday evening and I was switching between the channels of entertainment and found this movie being run on one of the Tamil channels.

I stopped and just wanted to catch a glimpse of certain scenes and move forward but happened to watch it again and wondered how people would have reacted to this movie in this era when every other romantic movie is sung in its very own glory and melody….!

I unconsciously fell in love with this movie again, which was ahead of our times and the subject dealt in the movie is what our generation could not easily think it was feasible…!

Now, 1986 isn’t that much of an golden era when compared today’s technical and cinematography advancements, this period saw some good movies and good directors… one such movie is this…that have stood across time and tide.

People even talk of this movie fondly even today and I can vouch for certain youngsters’ who call this a clean and a beautiful romantic movie…!

The plot is simple and the dialogues are simple enough to play the absolute melody with the characters….no wonder the movie is called – ‘Mouna Ragam – The Silent Symphony’.

The movie is about a simple girl whose is cheerful and  naughty but has a sorrow hidden in the closets of her heart…gets married to a man, who likes her for her frankness much against her wishes…!

They move to a town known to him and unknown to her and the life that unfolds between them….and the journey from hatred to admiration and then the inseparable feeling of love between them kick starts the journey of life and togetherness for ever….and the movie ends!

The way the scenes unfold one after another  is the trick of the director who has handled the script in an fabulous way….! The dialogues are crisp and to the point in the movie…each scene has been described in itself.

The characters have played their parts in subtlety, the main protagonist Mohan alias Chandrakumar in the movie has shown the perfect emotions of a husband who gets married to a bride of his choice but has to wait patiently to be accepted as the man of the dream girl.

He does all that he can do to take care of the girl he marries and gives her the new lease of life silently and even accepts for the gift that she asks for in return of the marriage he has undergone… – the gift being “Divorced”.

The wife Divya alias Revathy, the heroine of the movie around whom the story revolves…comes into a life unwillingly, just because her dad has a heart attack and the whole family accuses her of the problem and in order to save her fathers life….comes into the life of Chandrakumar slowly reveals her past to him and he accepts the past of hers and tells her that, ‘her past is of no importance to him and is willingly gives her the present she asks for along with a present he likes to give her…’ the transformation happens somewhere down the line and we relive every moment with her…be it her past or the present!

This is a clean romantic movie…that did not have any of the usual cinema gimmicks…will clear defined characters and their exit…It is a story narrated in its own glory.

I loved it watching it several times during my school and college days and in the times of Deck and Video Cassettes, I remember playing this movie as an ‘Invocation’ and an ‘Anthem’ every time during the school holidays and discuss among friends about an understanding and loving husband, such as Chandrakumar or crave for a lover like Manohar alias Karthik…!

Manohar remains on our mind and every time we see a equally well portrayed lover boy….he wakes from our memory…Karthik (actor) lives through the character…!

Last but not the least, an equal mention of the Music Director, Illayaraja who breathes life into the characters when they are not talking to each other or the emotions that overflow….in silence.

The perfect use of the musical instruments, to name a few, such as Violin, Flute, Double bass, Cello, Piano and Guitar, that strings the soul and also the characters emotions to blend with the viewers secretly wishing for the hero and heroine to be together….inseparable.

The music is the soul of the movie that speaks in volume and adds beauty to such a soul churning

For me this movie is something like today’s Vinnai Thandi Varuvaaya….people going ga-ga over this romantic flick…!

Share your feelings about this romantic movie that wakes your inner soul and makes you feel the love in air…!

Listen to your Heart…

I have been receiving a special email of an online summit about self growth and personal development… Some very interesting personalities are being interviewed and they share their views, thoughts and techniques for a life filled with happiness and satisfaction. These are people like you and me, did jobs like you and me, but one day each of these people stopped and listened to what was their inner calling … which is actually the purpose of their life, their existence on the planet, and so they began their true journey of life. It was never an easy thing, and was always scary, to give up well paid jobs and start a new career in Self help, like writing a book or doing research on “self esteem” or creating coaching classes to change one’s thinking. Some of them had enough savings to help through the initial shift period, considering most of them are married with children, while some of them just went by the way they felt in their gut. What I really see is , most of them have moved in the direction which gave them inspiration / motivation and energy , to wake up every morning and give their best, to the work they were creating/ promoting. Nobody went behind success, money or fame. They just went behind what gave them satisfaction.. and the best part was, that in turn gave them success, money and fame. One thing that stands out in the lives of each of these wonderful people is that they started at a point – a goal in their lives. This goal usually started as a simple thought/ feeling which recurred so often that it could not be ignored, and it became the purpose of their lives. And to achieve this goal they followed simple disciplines everyday, and stood by them even if it looked like they were going no where or the goal seemed unachievable. But finally, one day, they saw that their efforts have paid off and they have made a difference, changed their own lives, and changed the lives of others. The ability to draw from with in oneself, the human spirit, is so amazing and a true possibility for each one of us. Yet , for many of us, it is very challenging, and seems like a far fetched idea. Sometimes it is because we may be already doing what is our life’s purpose and we are okay, or we are following a life (style) that is most accepted by the society and the people around us.

When does a need to “look” for your life’s purpose arise- when you are unhappy, when it is unsettling, and when you don’t like what you are doing any more. This may be a feeling very early in your life or it may come later. Or it may never come at all. Nobody has to worry about one’s life’s purpose, if life’s good . Only when there is a heart and a mind that don’t seem to agree with each other, in the same body, does the need for understanding the bigger picture arise – life’s purpose.

Saying that one does finally arrive at their life’s purpose, it doesn’t mean that it is a smooth road ahead. One has to work in that direction, face obstacles at times, change life style, probably give up relationships, and above all focus clearly on this one “purpose” , so that one draws all the energy from the idea of accomplishing this journey. So what is the big deal about “life’s purpose”… how is it different from an otherwise normal life ? From what I understand, after listening to these wonderful achievers, is that when one is able to understand their purpose of life, they feel “complete”. There is no area of life that seems compromised, because things start falling in place naturally. If a relationship does not work, they have the understanding to accept it and move on with much less hurt. And because they draw their motivation from that one single purpose, they recharge their energies through this, rather than exchange of energies from their partners or other individuals. So the whole blame game is off and the world becomes a better place to live. Now isn’t that a wonderful place to live in.. where you feel happy and satisfied… and rearing to go !

Birbal…as usual !

Once Akbar was at court and was ready to start the session.. but Birbal was yet to come…. he kept looking at the entrance of teh court room…. and when finally Birbal came in running, he stood and apologized to the Jahanpanah.. saying : “Forgive me Jahanpanah… I was late as I stamped shit by mistake.. I had to go back home, wash and then come back… I am very sorry”.. At this,, all the other ministers, who always waited for an opportunity to throw him out, said . : “Oh thats is so awful… he has stamped shit Jahanpanah.. how can anyone do that.. we must amputate his leg !!” Every body agreed that Birbals leg must be amputated.

Birbal was caught in a tough spot… he did not know what to do.. he looked at Akbar and said.. ” Jahanpanah, please give me 45 days… so that i can walk to my hearts content… then i will willingly get my leg cut off “..
 
At this, Akbar looked at the other ministers… they looked at each other.. finally everyone accepted that it was fair to do so. give Birbal 45 days to enjoy his legs 😉
 
Next day, Birbal arranged some workers to dig a big pit , outside the city. Then he made a request to all people in the city, to please use this pit for their nature’s call. People found this funny, but they did not mind. Slowly the pit started getting full… Then Birbal threw seeds of greens on this pit and let them grow…in two weeks they were long and green and looked sumptiuos.. he arranged to pluck the greens and got them to the court… then offered every minister a big bunch. The ministers were so happy ! They took the greens home and made delicious preparations and  thanked Birbal profusely. They wondered how the greens tasted so good ! Birbal said that he grew them outside the city and the next crop will be ready in two weeks… this time he offered the ministers can themselves go and pluck the greens.
 
The ministers were thrilled and on the day of harvest, they jostled between each other to be the first to pick the best greens… as they went to pluck the greens they fell into the pit… with shit all over.. Birbal came to the pit and said. ” Oh ! you have all fallen in shit.. right up to your neck… how can any one do that… so your head must be amputated !!”
 
Thats when the ministers realised their mistake… they apologised and begged Birbal not to amputate their heads.. and get them out of the shit… Birbal did so willingly… It was the 45th day.. and Birbal’s leg was not amputated ! Akbar admired Birbal and remained his proud patron.
 
Moral : Think of others just as you think of yourself. What applies to them also applies to you 🙂
 
Foot note : This was a story told by my father when I was a little girl… the story is the same…just the words are different.